I’m scared of blogging

Do you know that feeling, when you’ve discovered or realized something amazing… and you immediately want to tell EVERYONE you know about it?

Those are the moments when I think: I should start a blog! Others are bound to find this interesting as well!

This lasts about 5-10 minutes – then the doubts start kicking in: “What if no one cares?”, “What if I write something wrong?”, “What if my (future) employer doesn’t like it?”, “What if it will haunt me for the rest of my life?”.
I usually end up whatsapping 2-3 friends about my discovery… and then stop because after all “they probably know this already”.

Two years ago… I finally decided to give blogging a go. I asked for advice on hosts and picked a non-public option, where I could decide who has access. Lower risk of public scrutiny. Then I wrote my first blog post. Yay!

I never gave anyone access.

So here I am again, two years later… reminding myself of the words I read in Brené Brown’s book “Daring Greatly”*:

“Vulnerability is not weakness, and the uncertainty, risk, and emotional exposure we face every day are not optional. […] Rather than sitting on the sidelines[…], we must dare to show up and let ourselves be seen. This is vulnerability. This is daring greatly.”

I’m still scared. But I promised myself I would try the path of more vulnerability. As they say in German: “Augen zu und durch” (“close your eyes and go”).

Dear world: here I am.

*Brené Brown, “Daring Greatly: How the Courage to Be Vulnerable Transforms the Way We Live, Love, Parent, and Lead” (2015, ISBN-13: 978-1592408412, a list of Brené Brown’s books can be found here: https://brenebrown.com/books-audio/)

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